Emotional Richter Scale

Author's note: Please read the post from June 27, 2006 for the start of "A Ten Year Retrospect

April 8, 1997 9:02 pm

Things are starting to get better. A couple weeks ago, (no it was after my last entry on the 30^th) for some unknown reason I got an intense feeling of depression and could not figure out why. It is a feeling I do not want to experience again. Most of the time I can control my moods but this one I could not. Then to top it off last weekend I saw Val at a local science fiction convention. I handled it better then I thought I would.

She found someone else to latch on to, and now I really know it is over between us. So now the next step us to move on. Tomorrow I am going to take Val off my bank account, and begin again.

I am going to start my business working again because I wanted to start selling pewter figures at the conventions. I have not seen any one else do it, and finally I am getting really serious about my writing.

Until Then

T

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Nothing hurts more is when you see you lost love for the fist time after a break up. It is like getting hit with a wave of emotions that no flash flood can compare. You try to be nice and make small talk, all the while you are trying not to explode in motion. If the relations ship ended badly then you would not have this problem. Oh if life could be that simple. It will never be. We can not predict how we will react to any given situation. Each one is unique in it own. Hopefully your past experiences will prepare you to cope with thing in the future, but there is always the one that slips past your defenses. Before my little F.U.B.A.R that caused this breakdown I never dealt with anything on that scale. Call it a 5.5 on the emotional Richter scale. (Above 7 I would need therapy and 10, I would be dead. I have ready said I am to stubborn for that)

I never did start the business and I did finally get serious about writing. I just need the ten years to past and Blogs to get invented. I will continue writing after this project is done and not wait until the Twenty Year Retrospect. There is too much to write about.